We all have those nights where we have no trouble falling asleep but wake in the wee hours in the morning thinking about life.
You know what I’m talking about, right? Where your thoughts are taken hijacked by a restless brain, moving from one thought to another.
In full disclosure, the first part of this summer has resulted in way too many sleepless nights for me.
Night after night I would wake around 1-2 am with racing thoughts and
a unsettled heart.
But, I didn’t know why.
Until, one night the seemingly random thoughts became crystal clear.
My heart was feeling bad – no, guilty – for being physically present with my family, but not mentally engaged.
This realization crushed me.
It seems I had fallen back into my push-at-all-costs mentality where being a professional was more important than being a parent and wife.
I put my business ahead of my family and friends….yet, again!
Sadly, I didn’t acknowledge it until I read this biblical truth:
“The Lord is my shepherd; I have all that I need. He lets me rest in green meadows; he leads me beside peaceful streams. He renews my strength.” Psalms 23: 1-2 NLT
This verse was my life link. In my mind, I knew I needed to slow down, but I couldn’t allow myself to do so as I believed that I needed to do more (and more and more) to grow my business.
I fell into the worldly belief that working your tail off was the only way to advance or get ahead in life.
Thankfully, God showed up (as He always does) and spoke truth to me.
This truth is that God is my shepherd who guides me in my life and He has a perfect plan for me. He speaks truth in that I already have everything I need. And He reminds me that rest is a beautiful gift from God. While our world believes rest is a sign of weakness, God views it as the only way to live.
Since this awareness I have taken steps to slow down so that I can be fully present and engaged with my family.
I’m spending more time talking with them and asking them questions about what interests and excites them. I’m spending more time looking at them when they ask a question to show them my interest and love. And I’m spending more time outside soaking up the warm, sunny days of summer while disengaging from the self-imposed expectation that I need to do more to be more.
Dear friend, how about you? Are you spending your days focusing on those things you see as a priority in your life? If so, congratulations! I admire you and pray that you continue to keep this your priority.
If you resonate with me, then friend, please know that it’s never too late to start fresh. Use each morning sunrise as your reminder that the day is a new beginning to make those you love your top priority and to be fully present with them. There truly is no better way to live.